Monday, October 29, 2012

to park jung soo

oppa, u will leave us tomorrow huh ? i'm so sad. but i'm not going to cry. let's meet next 2 years. we will always wait for u :))

Will you hear me out and not say anything?
I’m actually so nervous
I really don’t know how I will go through a day without you
I know it’s not the end for us
Don’t cry and hurt alone at my empty seat
* It’s only you in my heart, it’s only me in your heart
We’re resembling each other more and that means we’re in love
We’re under the same sky but apart in different places
Never forget this moment and remember it forever
I will remember your love that you showed me
The one and only love that no one can ever replace
I want to keep you deep inside my heart
I’m sorry for making you wait such a long time
The only one in my life, you are really special
You know too that I can’t go on if it’s not you and you can’t go on if it’s not me
At the thought of you, my heart rips, my sighs grow deep
Who says that things will get better little by little?
I love you, I love you, I love you, though you can’t hear me
I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I regret so much
F.5.R.E.V.E.R. I will hold your hand
Like the day we fell for each other at first sight, let’s refresh our relationship
Be my love (I) Need you, girl
It’s only you for me, you know this too
When the cold wind blows, that feeling that brushes your fingertips
It will always be by your side
You held my hand, I synced my footsteps with yours
The day I see you again, I won’t let go of your hands
oppa , take care. eat well, sleep well. and come back as a man :)) elf love u ~
oppa, your dongsaeng will take care sj. dun worry ^_^
forever our leader :3
p/s: D-1, We’re going to continue on until the day that Pearl Sapphire Blue balloons cover the entire world.”

Saturday, October 06, 2012


i was touched with this post, i decided to copy it here . *teary eyes*

 When Did It Become ELF Protecting Super Junior? Super Junior Should Protect ELF!”

I keep on reading posts of some ELF, stating how happy they were that after 6 years, Super Junior has finally learned how to stand up for themselves.

To be honest, I was also proud and happy at first, but looking back at what happened, I realized one thing - Super Junior never really stood up for themselves.

“So even if I’m tired, I have to pretend that everything’s okay…”

“Only when no one was noticing me did I secretly cry…”

“In the end, it still hurts…” -Heechul

“We talk about it and we may laugh about it, but when I go home I cry.” -Eunhyuk

“It’s hard…” -Kyuhyun

“I was doing well holding it in. It’s too hard… Really… Truly…”

Do something wrong to Super Junior, no matter how big it is, they will feel bad, post a thing or two about it then shrug off their shoulders, let it go and pretend like nothing ever happened.

On last SBS Gayo Daejun, the most pitiful fans were ELF.

But do something wrong, even so remotely small, to ELF - and all hell breaks lose!

And you will know that things are actually truly bad when even Siwon started cursing.

Without even thinking about their reputation, without even thinking about what other people might think or say about them, without even thinking about the consequences of their action - Super Junior stood up. But they didn’t stand up for themselves.

Super Junior stood up for ELF.

Some people say it is over reacting, rude and immature. But who are they to speak? They just read the posts and comment on it. The truth is, they never really know anything at all.

“This isn’t right… They should’ve put up notices beforehand, no? I’ll apologize on behalf of them~” -Leeteuk

“Sorry ELF~” -Donghae

And why should Super Junior apologize for something that wasn’t even their fault?

Since the beginning, it has always been Super Junior and ELF, ELF and Super Junior. And though sometimes Super Junior and ELF go together with DBSK and Cassies and/or SHINee and Shawols, and/or other fandoms but at the end of the day, it is still just us - Super Junior and ELF.


Can you blame us for wanting to protect each other? Can you blame us for reacting and fighting back when others hurt those whom we love and treasure the most?

I bet you don’t even understand why we are part of this Sapphire Blue Ocean.

Because Super Junior is the most goodlooking? Bias-ness aside, there are other idols who are far better looking than they are. Talented? Other groups can also do the things that Super Junior can do, maybe even more, maybe even better. Because they are the best? Well, now we all know that that’s not really true.

So why?

“When no one acknowledged us, when no one helped us. To the best fan club that made us feel the ‘mightiness’. Our ELF, I sincerely thank you again.” -Leeteuk

“I love you, ELF!” -Donghae

“ELF, who stood by us even though we are still lacking.”

“We couldn’t receive this award if not for ELF.” -Leeteuk

“Thank you all 40 thousand ELF! Let’s rock again tomorrow.”

“Thank you for being ELF!” -Kyuhyun

“We are nothing without ELF.”


For all the years that I have been a part of this fandom, never, ever did they make me feel that I am just a mere fan. What they always made me feel is that ‘I am an ELF’ - the Ever Lasting FRIEND of Super Junior.

Where will you ever find idols treating almost 600 of their fans to a warm cup of coffee after watching their performance on a chilly night?

Where will you ever find idols dancing and playing peek-a-boo with their fans at the airport?

Where will you ever find idols taking pictures of their fans, posting it in their (cyworld/twitter) accounts with the captions ‘Thank you’ and ‘I love you’?

Where will you ever find idols that composes, makes and dedicates songs especially for their fans?

Where will you ever find idols praying and crying for their fans that died?

Where will you ever find idols giving chocolates to their fans at their concerts?

Where will you ever find idols treating their fans ice creams during summer?

Where will you ever find idols thanking their fans profusely as if there is no tomorrow?

Where will you ever find idols waving and making heart signs inside their hotel room window just to show how much they appreciate the fans that are waiting for them outside?

Where will you ever find idols asking fans if they wanted to go up the hotel room because the air outside is pretty cold?

Where will you ever find idols asking fans to take care of their health?

Where will you ever find idols performing and doing their best even though they are really sick just because their fans deserve only the best?

Where will you ever find idols tightly shaking the hands and hugging their fans after a performance?

Where will you ever find idols bowing 90 degrees for almost 10 seconds just to show how grateful they are?

Why am I an ELF?

I am an ELF.
Because it is all worth it.

I am an ELF.
Because Super Junior is all worth it.

I am an ELF.
Because being an ELF is such an honor.

forever an elf <3

Thursday, October 04, 2012

hope ?

assalamualaikum, salam jumaat. penghulu segala hari. alhamdullilah :)

even i'm the one in group of potential. tp harapan satu word yg boleh soothe hati sya. dari dulu lagi.

yeahh. sya mmg sgt byk berahsia. sya memang seorg yg smpn dlm hati sya. kalu sya sedih,marah , sya selalu simpan. bg sya, lame2 nanti rasa tu hilang la. nak tau sbb ape ? sya percaya pada harapan. harapan yg rasa sakit tu akan pergi. biar it's take a lot of time.

dulu... dulu... mase sya form 3, ibu dgn ayah nak brpsh , yeahh, sya rase bende ny xperlu dh sya simpan rase. sya hilang harapan. sya rase sya x ade ape sebab untuk hidup. tp sbb ape sya masih ade dkt sini ?writing this post right know. sbb hope. HOPE. sya kata kat diri sya jgn prnh berhenti berharap. setiap langkah yg sya ambik mase form 3, sya kena kate "syameera, never lose hope". supaya sya akn teruskn hidup mcm org lain. i can smile , laugh like them too. and i did it ! yeahh >.<

and sekarang, mase dgr cg tengku rogayah kate " so ape harapan awak untuk spm ni" , hehe. cg suka tnya soalan yg cg tahu jwpn die kan? . sya nak je bgn kate " never lose hope ". hehe, tp malu la, hahaha~

so, even sesusah mane hidup, selalu percaya yg setiap yg berlaku pasti ade hikmah nya. kita kene terus tabah and be strong kan ? and spm, 3O HARI LAGI !

k, chauuu, assalamualaikum. NEVER LOSE HOPE !

p/s: harapan, harapan menjadi layu, ingin ku bahagia bersama ...